Friday, July 25, 2008
a day begin with sadness, will be cheer a bit later?

Wake up dreamily, sunlight was so weak. Thought of papa very sudden. Tears drop unconsciously.

A man who whenever I needed him he will always be there. A man who cares me more than other would do. A man who scold me for my own good.

Those days seem does not really far, but this man who always stay by my side was now stay far far away from me. It is a distance which I am unable to lay a finger on. I know I am gonna missed him much for my entire life, on the day he left.

He encourages me in my studies. He feeling guilt because he unable to send me to tuition, he worried I unable to catch up my syllabus, he even scant on himself just to give us more, what he does is for giving me the best thing ever.

He accompanied me when I am babyish. He went with me to a high air pressure place which he should not be to just to catch up my idol. I memorized hardly, he vomit heavily when reach to there. My heart as if cut through for my flash back on it, but I did not realized his love on that time. I treated as everything included all the love he gave was in the nature of thing. I did not reply him the love he wishes for so long until the day he had left, and I will never have the chance to love him any again.

He cooked for us even when he is half paralysis, we did not appreciate. Some cause working pressure and tiredness. Against grow into adult, can understand his heart feeling deeply. Guilty in heart will not be clear forever.

The day he gone, I hugged on his cold body and I does not know how to cry, I am abnormally calmness. Today I cried, I am missed him, and i am abnormally emotion. I can’t stop myself from crying once thought of I will not able to see him in my life anymore.

He is my papa, my lovely papa. Sorry papa, for everything that I had done, everything which hurt you, really sorry.

Precious you
12:12 PM |

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