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this day was the first time laogong made laopo cried. hurt so bad. heart-aching. shaking so cold in the heavy rain with no one. crossing road alone. it was really so cold. laogong forgot to give laopo access card and key. the sky turning grey and grey. it then comes a heavy rain. leaking of menstrual, do not holding umbrella, wet through clothes, keep walking. that make laopo really felt very very bad. laogong said the first and the last, laopo cried again. sorry, laogong. laopo did not considerate about what which make laogong hard just now. when laopo get know about laogong is hard, the angrier disappear, some guilts appear. here comes a nothing, but laopo still feeling sad.='(
this term, everything. really tiring. release in the rain, by tears hardly.
Precious you
10:43 PM |
Friday, April 11, 2008
girl hope daddy to know, to bring girl once again... silly thought...
daddy, help... help me...
girl girl just wish to lives a happier life ever after. miss daddy more often when the things all gone wrong. what should girl do? girl hope, daddy was here to advise girl, to teach girl what to do? what some more girl able to do? girl ache, who know? really suffer to continuous sticking in this family situation.T-T no way to be tough already, girl had spent all the energy to be tough, to be independent, to be mummy's counselor, to advise goh goh, to lives a better life, to think positively, to do the best that girl able to do. when can get a better life??? why liked getting worst? girl really tired. girl really do. girl doesn't wish to awake. dad, three years already. girl cried till have no tears to cry anymore. why??? life never getting well since daddy sick. girl really tired. really really tired. no one can understand girl feeling. even mummy. blame came against girl even nothing girl did wrong. girl cant get the way to express the thought, the ache, the helpless. girl hope, plenty hope daddy was here.
pa, please forgive this useless girl. how nice if dad can be here and wipes away girl tears? girl just hope for a hug from papa. pa, sorry. really sorry...
Precious you
7:25 PM |