Saturday, September 30, 2006
my goh goh.. mummy and me love you a lots..
my goh goh.. mummy and me love you a lots..
i think.. i really dont know you..
who are you? who am i? what is suppose for me to do? what somemore i able to do?
goh.. i really felt heart pain.. i never thaught that i will still cry for you.. somemore cry until my eye become swollen.. both of me and mummy really dont know what is in your mind.. after papa left us.. we not sure whether you sad or just threat as usual..
this morning while i facing you.. i just felt.. strange.. that was too sad.. you live with me bout 17years.. what left for today.. just strange.. did you know?.. that was really a big shock for me and mummy?.. did you know?.. how much tear that we drop for you?.. just right after we get know bout what you have did.. did you ever think about us?.. did you ever think about our family?.. this family that less a person..
goh.. can you spend some time for this family.. we are not asking you to give anything.. we just need you to stay at home.. with us.. even one hour.. one minute.. or even one second.. is it really that hard for you to do for us?.. for me and mummy..is that really hard?.. that hard for you to do so?.. that hard for you to stay with us?.. we are from the same family.. we should be together.. why dont you realise bout it.. that was hard to get into a same family.. really hard.. that pre-destiny.. why cant you just appreciate it?.. why cant you?!.. my heart really painful.. and it does crying for now.. i am not sure whether you are really change or you just try to hide away from the fact that papa was gone.. i ensure bout it..
everyday.. when both of me and mummy get into sleep.. you only step back into this house.. when i out for school.. you still lying at bed and sleeping.. same as when mummy been to work.. we less talk.. less communicate.. less understanding.. can be never meet in the whole week even in the same place.. a small space..
that day.. my birthday.. when i got know and feel that you still sayang me.. i am really happy.. happy than ever.. but then.. why it change to be liked this today?.. i doesnt wish to face nowaday de you.. i dont know how to face..
goh.. i never tell.. but.. you know?.. i really love you a lot.. i care for you.. you will be my brother in my whole life.. nothing could be change this fate that with you be as my brother.. we were in this relationship for our whole living.. goh.. I LOVE YOU.. hope that you can know bout that and realise bout your attendent for this family was how much important.. we dont leave anyone in the coming future.. can? is it okie?.. deal a promise.. okie?..
who are you? who am i? what is suppose for me to do? what somemore i able to do?
goh.. i really felt heart pain.. i never thaught that i will still cry for you.. somemore cry until my eye become swollen.. both of me and mummy really dont know what is in your mind.. after papa left us.. we not sure whether you sad or just threat as usual..
this morning while i facing you.. i just felt.. strange.. that was too sad.. you live with me bout 17years.. what left for today.. just strange.. did you know?.. that was really a big shock for me and mummy?.. did you know?.. how much tear that we drop for you?.. just right after we get know bout what you have did.. did you ever think about us?.. did you ever think about our family?.. this family that less a person..
goh.. can you spend some time for this family.. we are not asking you to give anything.. we just need you to stay at home.. with us.. even one hour.. one minute.. or even one second.. is it really that hard for you to do for us?.. for me and mummy..is that really hard?.. that hard for you to do so?.. that hard for you to stay with us?.. we are from the same family.. we should be together.. why dont you realise bout it.. that was hard to get into a same family.. really hard.. that pre-destiny.. why cant you just appreciate it?.. why cant you?!.. my heart really painful.. and it does crying for now.. i am not sure whether you are really change or you just try to hide away from the fact that papa was gone.. i ensure bout it..
everyday.. when both of me and mummy get into sleep.. you only step back into this house.. when i out for school.. you still lying at bed and sleeping.. same as when mummy been to work.. we less talk.. less communicate.. less understanding.. can be never meet in the whole week even in the same place.. a small space..
that day.. my birthday.. when i got know and feel that you still sayang me.. i am really happy.. happy than ever.. but then.. why it change to be liked this today?.. i doesnt wish to face nowaday de you.. i dont know how to face..
goh.. i never tell.. but.. you know?.. i really love you a lot.. i care for you.. you will be my brother in my whole life.. nothing could be change this fate that with you be as my brother.. we were in this relationship for our whole living.. goh.. I LOVE YOU.. hope that you can know bout that and realise bout your attendent for this family was how much important.. we dont leave anyone in the coming future.. can? is it okie?.. deal a promise.. okie?..
Precious you
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